I kinda felt that I have wasted too much time on things that are useless or at least not doing any good or me. I should be studying or doing my assignments which my friends have already started or already done. OH MY, I dunno whats wrong with me, I just cant get into the study mood. Can someone help me? :( It sucks much when you just cant get your study mood on. Its like I want to do this but I cant. BOO x(
Been thinking quite a lot about life these days, what I wanna be or rather who do I see myself as few years down the road. I have always been really lost in life, my dream and what I wanna achieve in life. I was full of dream, full of hope and faith. Till few years back, I just fail in everything I do. I gave up my passion in arts, stopped dancing, living life like Im still 10 years old. Damn, sometimes I really wish to be young, what was it thinking when I was younger? lol. Some people just gotta learn life through the hard way, and I guess Im one of them? Nobody live a smooth sailing life, everyone will fail somewhere, sometime in life. But I always tell myself not to give up. Be it in my life or whatsoever. Yes, I might not be the brightest kid, the prettiest girl, the most talented one. But, at least I try and never give up, thats what life is all about isnt it?
When life dont go the way I want or rather the way I planned, I realised i'd often blame God. I dunno why, maybe because I compare too much? Why cant I lead a normal life? Have a normal academic route as people? I dont ask much, all I want is to enter poly and get a dip. I even gave up about my dream as a .... *for me to know, for you to find out* But oh well! Life just loves giving me lemon, so I can make lemonade?
I believe that when things like this happens... I should never blame God anymore. Being a christian doesn't mean I have a problem-free life. Problems happens so I can grow.... Okay, my initial intention wasnt to blog about life. But well, feelings~ haha!
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